I am surprisingly less lonely than I would have thought coming back to Tok. I guess the security of knowing that people care about me and are there for me at any time is the cause of that. It’s an amazing feeling, actually. Absolutely marvelous. You know what else is great? Making close friends then driving down trails listening to NPR and discussing our futures and crazy dreams, just enjoying the time. Life is just so much better honest, and being honest with someone else is even better. Just sitting in an open back of a vehicle and enjoying the great outdoors with the hum of indie and world steady and new in the background. It is the happiest I have felt in Tok for a long time.
Just to be completely spontaneous, allow me to switch topics. Hitch hiking is something I have considered too. Just catch rides across the country, finding odd jobs and new people and experiences everywhere. I don’t know, just something I would adore doing, I feel. Want to start attending a yoga class, but I’m not sure if any of the times work around my two jobs. I will have to check in to that.
(And more spontaneity.) Just ran my fastest consistent 2.4 miles yet. Kept up a 6:40 mpm (minute per mile) pace. Last night just felt perfect. Heart was all fluttery from joy and it was a truly beautiful evening. Things just fall in to place sometimes. I hope it’s like this more often. Oh! And guess what? Someone told me I really look like I was born for running when I run: smooth form and a great stride. Wow. When told things like that, you can’t help but feel a bit giddy. I know I sure did! A strange occurrence,though, is that I was called a temptress twice in one day. One man and one woman each said so, so I guess I’m holding up my expression of “self” very obviously. If that makes sense.
So, I write this for the world to read and feast upon while jamming to Journey and Prince, so it must have some interesting motives and mixed content. Who knows, though. I highly doubt anyone has a truly clear idea of what their blog entries will turn out revealing about their mind, heart, self in general. It’s a pleasant surprise reading them over in the future, to see how much has changed…or how much hasn’t. Anyways, farewell my readers. Until my next entry, go with strength and happiness.